BETTER THAN THAT;

You know when people tell you to just not mind it? I always do that. But sometimes there are limits. Sometimes you can’t help but wonder why you are still friends with someone when all they could think of you is a laughing stock.

Decided to deactivate a social networking site I’m a member of. I guess it’s better if people won’t hear anything about what’s going in my life. And to summarize:

• I stopped school for now. I think I have already mentioned this.
• I should learn how to drive this quarter. Target month: Feb.
• I gained weight again for reasons I don’t know why. I guess when they say you stopped going to the gym, you’d gain weight. They are probably right. I intend to lose pounds especially in the tummy area. I just hope I won’t be lazy enough to jog around wherever.
• Work is still work. Still stressful plus add people who gives you stress.
• I watched Katy Perry last week. Too bad we weren’t able to go to the Meet and Greet. We didn’t know.
• Who bought an iPhone case but who doesn’t own an iPhone? Me! Well, I’m planning to get an iPhone (white 64gb) as a birthday gift for myself (yes, turning a year older) but Globe doesn’t have a stock yet. Galing magpromote wala namang stock. So I have to make a reservation first hopefully this week.

Of weddings.

Just for this month, few of my friends are getting married and for the whole year most of them will. Next month, I’ll be turning 28. 28! While most of my friends are either engaged or married or having babies, I am still single.

I caught this video online where this guy Kris (if I remember his name right), created a video for his wife, Rachel. It was sweet and endearing. The sad thing though was that that’s the last present he’d be able to give to his wife. He just died of cancer. Well, it made me cry and then this thought of finding someone seeped in my mind again.

I’m contented with my life right now but sometimes the curiosity of being into a relationship and getting married visits me. What did I do wrong? Was there something I didn’t do? The thought of getting married is something far too unreachable now. The question is, will I ever fall in love?

I’m not praying for it to come true. I’m praying for what’s God’s plan to me comes true. Tomorrow is such a vague reality. The only moment we would know something is real would be when we look back and the feelings are still there.

First week of 2012.

First work week of 2012 was spent mostly on meetings. For sure, it will continue on the next days. I’m having second thoughts if I will continue my Master’s degree. According to a friend who already have her Master’s, for someone in our industry it is not much needed. A Master’s degree is advisable if you’re from the academe or the government. Honestly, I just want to take management courses. It annoys me that the school has this weird way of offering classes. I’m really thinking of going on leave. I have too much stress on work and if school stress will add up I don’t know what will happen to me. If ever, this will be the first term I’ll be taking two subjects. I’m kinda leaning on not finishing it anymore.

11 things to be thankful for

1. Watched Taylor Swift live
2. Traveled to Singapore
3. Watched Sara Bareilles in Singapore
4. Gained new work friends and school friends
5. Got ITIL certified
6. Good health on my family and friends
7. Got admitted to DLSU’s MSIT program
8. Passed my first term in DLSU
9. Discovered the awesomeness of milktea
10. Continuous friendship with my closest friends
11. Survived my first year in HP

2011.

Told myself hundreds of times before that I will update this blog but everytime I try to, I end up not doing anything. 2011 will end in 2 days. Let’s see if I can summarize every thing in a single post.

• It’s pretty safe to say that I have survived my first year in my new job. The whole year was definitely hectic. Every other week I was on-call. Stress took a toll thus I’ve been sick a lot of times this year. Guess I need to start on taking vitamins. My evaluation was pretty good although it’s kinda scary for next year. Hello expectations!
• I was also able to enroll for my master’s degree last September and I already finished the first term. And I almost didn’t make it. Let’s just say I was stupid. Well, anyways I passed. Enrollment for next term is next week. Actually, I’m still half-hearted if I’ll enroll or not. I haven’t thought exactly if this degree will help me. Well, I would like to take up the project management courses but those are offered as electives and you can’t get electives without taking the foundation courses first. I’ll be taking 2 courses next term. Hope I could make it.
• Lost my wallet sometime last November along with around Php2000 cash, ATM and credit cards plus school ID. Total damage for the cards were around Php1500. Well, karma will bite the culprit’s ass.
• Got my first IT certification in October. I’m now ITIL certified! I plan on taking up the other IT certifications. Let’s see. :)

Things I want to do this Christmas break:
- Catch up on TV series
- Read books
- Organize stuff in my office laptop
- Sleep

I’ve been meaning to update this site but I’ve been too lazy but I guess this is the proper time. 

• It’s been 6 months since I started working at my new company. It was hard at first. So far this is the busiest job I’ve had. But it’s good. It’s better to be busy than doing nothing at all. I can say I have adapted quickly but I know there’s much more to learn. I’m grateful that my teammates are kind and we all get along. I have officially started with  my work from home yesterday. So far, tasks are piling up but I’m getting by.
• I’m also thinking of enrolling for my masters. I already have some of the requirements and need to complete the others. I’m not actually sure of this but let’s see. Also, I’ve been meaning to enroll myself in driving school. My choices right now are Socialites and A1. Socialites is cheaper than A1. Hopefully I’ll enroll myself this weekend.
• I don’t understand why I keep having dreams of her and him. Come on! Out of all the possible things to dream why them? It’s just like a reminder of the day she kept it from me. Like I care much now but still. It feels that way. I trust her but I don’t trust him. And I know I can’t do anything if they’ll be in touch again and rekindle whatever they have. Like what I told myself before, I’m just gonna be the friend that rushes to when needed.
• Speaking of her, I’m also hating A with a passion. She doesn’t deserve to be treated that way after all the things she did for her. She’s just so unfair. If only confronting her wouldn’t be taken on the wrong way, I’d do it plus she doesn’t know me personally. But honestly, I really want to slap on her face this ill treatment she’s doing!
• Will start budgeting come payday this month. I have to. Hopefully I can save a certain amount come yearend.

Sometimes I ask myself why am I here - is it because you wanted me to or I wanted to?

I just want to take care of you but I know there are things I shouldn’t do, there are things that are way beyond the line.

I’m getting there. Slowly, I will make things easier for the both of us, definitely less issues. I’d let you be. I would just be here, here when you need me. I’ll wait for the moment you’ll need me.

For I know I’ve been paranoid, jealous and insecure lately.

This would be the evidence that the above three will end by today.

For whatever you decide, it is your life.